It's been more than 2 years since I blogged.
A lot of things have happened.
I have been spending like 2 years being a neet.
Turning to gaming because it's more enjoyable than the real world.
I regret doing that. If I could turn back time I want to study, gain more knowledge about the coming future.
Yeah I would brag that I'm good at the game called "team fortress".
The satisfaction  of winning over someone repeatedly. 

But I realize that I was proud of the stupidest thing which won't make an impact in my life.
Right now returning to society.  Never know when  I would go back to being a neet.
My obsession for "team fortress" was so strong it feels like km a smoke addict.
I know I need help but I don't know where to start.

The closest to me was my close friend Lewis.
It's totally my fault for rejecting people who cared for me.
Same goes to the friends I made during the past.
My insecurity