Im really lost.... c0mments! I really dont know what to do. im really lost. All the time i have been staying at home consistently. sleeping at irregular times. i feel like shit. I wanted to work. But i needed money for transport. im really having money trouble right now. Whats even worst is, my ezlink wont be able to use anymore. i have to use coins. it will cost me $2 to go out. Im really feeling very shitty.
If only i look for a job sooner, i wont have to stay at home all day. I honestly dont like to stay indoors. it is very gloomy. i rather have a fresh air outside. Since i graduate from secondary school, im not that active anymore. maybe it was because i have close friends. During secondary school day, i would like to hang out with my friends even if its really boring. I can still remember the days i went to Maverick house with others. Sometimes we would play computer or doing nothing at all. it seems like doing nothing at all was fun to me at that time. Now im really obsessed with playing online games. I know its not good for me to stay at home playing games all day. When im at home, the most fun things i could do at home was touching my laptop. Even now i rarely touch my ps3. i figure that i had quite a big problem. a bad habit. i want to stop this and hang out with friends but the only thing that is preventing me is money.
I can ride a bike to lewis house during weekend to hangout but in the end of the day i will be very exhausted. it took me 1 hour to reach his house and another to go back home. its really very tiring. I would sweat when riding. i really hate sweating when i have no extra shirts to wear. Now waiting for my Ns. I dont know when i will be going in. Azri told me that there is a job at kallang leisure park. maybe i might be working there. the only thing im worried is, spending money for a job. i remember last time when i want to work as a promoter. i had to spend lots of money just go for the job. Even worst, i didnt get any money at all because i thought it was really very hard to work as a promoter. the worst thing about being promoter is asking your family to buy their product in order to get pay. its really very shameful to ask your family buy the product after you just said to them that you are working. its more like taking money away from them. the most decent pay i ever received was the company Sasa. Long john silver was not bad but because of one person i dont like, i stopped working. Whenever i tried to ask lewis find work together, it always end up in failure. life is really not simple since i graduate.
Maybe tomorrow ill search the location for the job that Azri recommended in the internet.