c0mments! i read this blog. its about how to take critism. they say people who gets all defensive when they are critisized have low self-esteem and immature.
so it points out to me. but thinking back. isnt fun to be immature?
here is the correct detail of taking critics.
ignore it and accept it. i feel wierd if i dont argue. it has become a habit to
argue.

anyway my life is now worst.
no allowance
no internet access after 6.45pm
no more online gaming
no more bus
for now i keep my cool and tolerate this.
from now on ill try to be more tolerating than before.
now the things that can keep me away from boredom is Psp and Songs.
I wont collapse because of this. although deep down im really mad at my father, i still greet him. i really wonder what happen to my father. its like he has no more money.
now i go to school enduring my hunger.
im not good at holding back my hunger.
i guess im slimming down because of less consume of foods
i ate about 1 meal a day.
i believe someday things would go back to normal.
i received a school fees today. but i though it was my father who was suppose to pay the school fees. i feel like im getting more sensible than before.
i wonder what caused this.
ill try to get along with others.
i want to be more respected.
today i was criticized by Ilham like saying" come find trouble in the facebook."
i knew it was directed at me. but i tell myself everyone has embarrassing moments so i let it go and just treat it as a wind just blowing pass me.
whatever happens i dont want to breakdown. they say if you tell yourself positive things 100 times, the effect will happen and you will be what you tell yourself before then.
to stay positive i just have to remind myself that i can do it.

when you wake up in the morning you press UP not Down.
what i meant is you look at the bright side. "today i will get to do something fun" instead of "damn, another boring and stressful day"
so UP is positive and Down is Negative.
i might not blog for awhile since im restricted to play at night.