c0mments! Let me get this clear. Why are people so ignorant. saying that i didnt do what i was suppose to do but didnt look at themselves for what they didnt do. damn this people. Why are people acting all big and arrogant when i looked up to them? can't you just respect and dont treat them like dogs. i know for sure i have done this in the past but i changed. last time i even boss people around to lick the floors. yeah i was arrogant and heartless. i changed for the better. For people out there who treat me like im your dog. you got the wrong person. i wont hesitate to punch.
Stop leveling people god damn it. even if they are much weirder. imagine if all the people had died and you left with this weird person. would you talked to him? the answer is obvious.
I was popular once but i never level down people until so low. even a little i respect them. like delta,JL and some others. i respect them. i never insult people seriously. even if i insult, it was really meant to be a bad joke. i really hated people who looked down on others.
And yeah weird people are entertaining and annoying. so what. theres no need to hate them. its like being a stereotype. From now on i wont respect people who are really ignorant. When it comes to pride i really wont let people push me. Delta has a weak pride. he even get bullied everytime and still didnt fight back. if i were him i wont hesitate to punch that person even if im risking it. so what if there are many people beating you. you let them push you then you are better of dead. there are times you need to fight back. you didnt fight than whats the point living. i have been in this situation "tried to ask somebody but instead he pushes me away and continue what he was doing" alot of times. i can handle that but if that becomes his habit then i wont talk to him anymore. damn this people.

c0mments! i just found this article from a website. its good for us.


("Mind Power- Inner Psychology to Success
The term mind power and the subconscious mind power are described in many different ways. In the psychosomatic sense mind power is labeled as ability to have emotions, imagination, memory, and will; and subconscious mind power is labeled as part of the normal individual’s personality in which mental processes function without consciousness under normal waking conditions.
Contents
1. How Mind Power and Subconscious Mind Power work2. How to use Subconscious Mind for success
Mind power is our conscious mind, the way we think. The mind is similar to a constantly flowing spring however a natural spring cannot send forth fresh water and bitter from the same opening, nor yield both salt water and fresh. So it is with the mind and its thoughts; it cannot equally think negative and positive thoughts at the same time. One will rule the other. Since the mind reflects habitual thoughts, it is therefore our responsibility to influence our mind and brain with positive emotions, thoughts and energy as the dominating factors in our mind. Mind power is beyond positive thinking or brain power, it is thinking than believing what you think that will manifest your reality. Since this mind power is power of thought and beliefs, and these thoughts and beliefs will create the outcome of your now, you will want to stay aware to the reflections you are thinking.
Now mind power is a dual system that includes your power of thought(brain) and your subconscious mind. We all have subconscious mind power; it can be as small as smiling at your boss in the hopes of improving the odds of acquiring a raise.
It can be the way you unconsciously handle a situation whether appropriately or not. Power of the subconscious mind comes from the thoughts and beliefs of your the power of the your mind. However you think and believe is what your subconscious mind power will produce. This is done continuously, one minute at a time. Every thought nourished regularly by your mind power will activate your subconscious mind to generate those thoughts and energy whether good or bad into your life. This is how you’re present and future is created.

Your mind power and your subconscious mind work together and they fashion your reality. Let’s use a parallel to help you visualize how this works. Your subconscious mind power is similar to fertile soil that consents to any seed planted inside it. Your habitual thoughts and beliefs are the seeds which are being continually sown and they will eventually produce a crop. So if you plant weeds you will get weeds, if you plant fruit, you will get fruit. In other words, you reap what you sow. Now the conscious mind is the gardener, and it is the mind power to choose what reaches our inner garden- the subconscious.
Unfortunately, most of us do not have green thumbs because of lack of knowledge of this law, the psychology behind this success and because of this ignorance we have allowed all kinds of seeds, both good and bad, to enter. So our subconscious mind power will manifest failure, ill health and all kinds of misfortunes just as effortlessly as it will manifest success and abundance. However, it cannot manifest it both at the same time, which is why the need to constantly actuate the positive until the fertile soil of your subconscious mind power reaps only abundance. Success is only a choice away.")

Its good for anyone who cant make up their mind.

c0mments! i read this blog. its about how to take critism. they say people who gets all defensive when they are critisized have low self-esteem and immature.
so it points out to me. but thinking back. isnt fun to be immature?
here is the correct detail of taking critics.
ignore it and accept it. i feel wierd if i dont argue. it has become a habit to
argue.

anyway my life is now worst.
no allowance
no internet access after 6.45pm
no more online gaming
no more bus
for now i keep my cool and tolerate this.
from now on ill try to be more tolerating than before.
now the things that can keep me away from boredom is Psp and Songs.
I wont collapse because of this. although deep down im really mad at my father, i still greet him. i really wonder what happen to my father. its like he has no more money.
now i go to school enduring my hunger.
im not good at holding back my hunger.
i guess im slimming down because of less consume of foods
i ate about 1 meal a day.
i believe someday things would go back to normal.
i received a school fees today. but i though it was my father who was suppose to pay the school fees. i feel like im getting more sensible than before.
i wonder what caused this.
ill try to get along with others.
i want to be more respected.
today i was criticized by Ilham like saying" come find trouble in the facebook."
i knew it was directed at me. but i tell myself everyone has embarrassing moments so i let it go and just treat it as a wind just blowing pass me.
whatever happens i dont want to breakdown. they say if you tell yourself positive things 100 times, the effect will happen and you will be what you tell yourself before then.
to stay positive i just have to remind myself that i can do it.

when you wake up in the morning you press UP not Down.
what i meant is you look at the bright side. "today i will get to do something fun" instead of "damn, another boring and stressful day"
so UP is positive and Down is Negative.
i might not blog for awhile since im restricted to play at night.