Yesterday Today c0mments! Yesterday or maybe today in the middle of the night i went skating with mansur while lewis acompany me. i did teach him some method on how to skate. like standing on one leg on the skateboard. while he is learning i was wasting my energy running on a "ledge" which i think will improve my body balance if i did that. than mansur stopped skating and talk to lewis with lewis other friend. i felt bored and tired. then i start skating like mad. i think i realize that if im extremely tired i will waste my energy like crazy. especially on something fun. haiz today at 7pm my stupid father trying to scare me...fuck...i showed him the sign that i really hate him. no i rather waste my time doing other things rather than wasting time on him. its not worth hating. wth he told me that he will break my laptop if i played in the room or overnight using.whats wrong with that?!!!! 1st theres nothing wrong in playing in my room...even if you are preventing me watching porn...there will be a time that i WILL watch. there is no escaping. are you really stupid?! my "mother" also stupid...letting him step on you. he WILL step on you more. i prefer to stay at my grandmothers house rather than here. but school is not near. if you have been as nice as grandma i would have listened to you stupid! i wont listen to people who scold me. instead i will do the opposite. every single time i will see you scolding people. even "mother" for her talking. are you trying to change us?!! well for one thing you did change me...into a pessimist idiot! now here i am trying hard to get to my old self. you want to break my laptop? well there is a price. the price is i will direspect you even more. i never once got praised by you.when i was little i even want you to praise me for getting good marks. seriously everytime i must get over this hate everytime you scold me. you are wasting my time. enough of that...
now talking about yesterday ... lewis told me that if you sleep more you are not living your life to your fullest. he said the reason was...when you sleep you are doing something. but there is some other thing you can do to improve your life. yes sleeping is important but what if your life get taken away tomorrow? you never know so i heed his advice and try to do something worth doing. i must remind myself that action speaks louder than words. i keep forgeting this. lutfi dont just say that you want to do it. just do it. dont do that just boost yourself up. do it because you wanted it.