c0mments! its been last week since i touch this laptop of mine. its more boring without laptop because its fasting month...now i can play sports. i want to improve my fitness.
erm...ya today i can go pe maybe? i have been keeping these 2 sentence in my mind..."make up your mind fast" and "English". these 2 sentence really improve my life for the better. after fasting month was over i felt weird and upset somehow. i dont know why. but now im relieve because i want to start playing sports. and yeah i need to improve my "forgive and forget"
meaning that i should think of bad stuff. but since last week its improving. no matter who that person is you have to learn to forgive. now i have forgiven whoever that makes me angry. i want to learn to think that every 1 day is your last. or i would be slacking at home sleeping. starting from today i want to try this. if possible i will try to avoid negative talks with people. its unhealthy to hate. which do you prefer? Hate or Love? from what i have experience....hate is tiring because you think of bad stuff when you could have done something better. love is liking everything in a good way. but of course you have to be self awared of whom you are liking. that person might not be who you think it is. i heard people say that if life is at peace then something is just not right. you need "Bad" and "Good" to balance. i want to finish this course earlier and work..maybe im planning to play sports and working. that way life is more exciting. i need to learn to motivate myself doing something. maybe this week i might do more work...because fasting month is over. last weeks i was suffering from hunger everytime i tried to do my homework. i stopped immediately when i feel uncomfortable in any part of my body. but maybe today is different i hope...

i believed in good things but in return it is the opposites c0mments! Today i came school for Fyp. Farhan teach me about the flash then he say that he would do it than i do the fyp.
i was so focused. really i was focused and try to perfect my animation. i was half way done. my friends praised me for my work. i feel more confident and excited to finish the scene. i focused and i didnt know what i did but more than half of the frame is gone. just because i believed that saving work everytime is safe. i got really frustrated. i just want to relax. i wanted to finish my work and relax. i regret saving my work. if i did not save my work i would have continue on. now i have to do it from the start. i said to myself that this happens and try to be a little happier about it. just think that this is a opportunity to improve my work even more. to put it in a negative way i just think i might not finish this fyp if this goes on. so i have to get a wacom pen and photoshop...or maybe a sketchbook. draw those movement and finish it. i have to finish it within this week. i have to.... or this will show that i have no talent at all. when i go home i am going to buy a sketch book and draw all the needed scene. you can do it lutfi

c0mments! last week was a disaster...family problem. now i dont have the mood to talk about that old man. hate him. i am planning to buy a internet for myself. but i dont know the details about it. and i want to know which is better...prepaid or bill... i asked alot of people about this but non is the answer that i wanted. the sooner the better. i dont want to be threaten. it sucks to be threat by useless people....last friday i witness gemini betraying Again. it was hariz. he said that he would wait for peishen outside class but ended up going with violet and the rest. it pisses me off. he himseld said that he will wait outside. i know this is a small matter but i had to say this. if you dont want me to call you betrayer then dont do it. no common sense...and he got no confidence in his drawings. omg then why be our background artist if you are not confident. there i go trying to defend him and he just strongly agree with others...how stupid was that.i tried to debate with violet and hariz just said " i believe you violet". those who said that are weaks. no seriously sometimes you just have to defend your pride. if i were you i will improve my drawings and prove it to him rather than agreeing to what he says. sometimes the only good advice is always from yourself. i hope you dont do this kind of thing anymore. it pisses me off. if you read this then you know what you should not do. this week have to finish most work... i got all confused when miss tracy asked me to do her work. i just dont know where to start. so i think i should try finish mr chua website then resize for miss tracy...after that maybe i all out for the animation.
about the animation i got a little problem with animating. although bryan said that its acceptable. but to me i have to put more effort on it. i have to buck up and finish these frame by frame or we wont finish this final assignment. no matter what we have to finish this final assignment.
i think that i rather choose frame by frame than cut out. frame by frame got more feeling to it.
i have to admit that darryls drawing is incredible. he just draw a few drawings to animate it. its kinda cool. as other team i should be jealous or my work will be shit. if you arent jealous you would put more effort in your work. actually from the start of the school i was looking forward to frame by frame which is mostly done by anime. my friend lewis asked how did i know how to draw this things. i just say that i liked it...thats the reason why i could. i strongly believes that if you like to draw that certain thing and you keep drawing you will get better on it. for me i tried to be original in my drawings. its kinda hard but i just keep creating. by creating character i was able to find more drawings that i could add to my characters. if drawing isnt fun than you might get ugly drawings out. the 1st time i tried drawing was Pokemon "Ash" just to make a comic. i would say that drawing a comic is fun because you could create stories by your own boundaries. when i drew "ash" it looks really ugly. its like a dislocated arm with 2 eyes not in the same size legs longer. i tell you that my drawing was much weirder than now. the most drawing i did...was....dragonball...i liked to draw the super saiyan hair. it looks cool. everytime i would make the story so obvious coz i everytime transform them into saiyan mode. never in normal mode. the only person that reads my comic was my cousin. he also draw comics. but i say he got more power. what im saying is that he always draw the power effect. example ...wind came out of the sword blade. rocket blast as if its the strongest. its kinda funny if you see it.
oh man its late i have to go to sleep....

c0mments! Today i woke up for "sahor" eat burger ramli then when i want to go back in my room,my brother smokes and the whole room smell of tobacco. i hate it. i took my pillows and sleep in the living room. i woke up when farhan called. he asked if i am going to school and i said i didnt want. i was soo damn sleepy. i slept in the living thats why i couldnt sleep properly. i went back to bed right after the call and slept for 2 or 3 hours. seriously i dont need a family who smokes. they only make me angry. just quit smoking and dont waste money. use your money on food instead. 1 cigrattes box can cost 5 or 10 dollars. you could buy 2 set meals at least. what if you were in the jungle? i bet you cant survive. to me smoking is like taking drug...but of course i know the difference. its addicting i know. they say smoking can make friends. about that i dont know. i can only say that is "influence". complaining about person who smokes is dumb i shouldnt do that. they wont quit. even my father who sometimes run out of money stills smoke. i did think that i wanted him to stop smoking but seeing that his attitude like that i would guess that he would bark at me. how i wish there will be no one in this planet who smokes. whatever...

Today quite fun c0mments! Today wake up late got dizzy. then sleep for an hour and go to school.
i was asked to do a...waht is that call...??? i dont know its the animate drawing. i need to draw alot of..! frame by frame. ya. im not that confident about doing it in toon boom. but i will try. never know untill u try. then after awhile we go P.E...no its S and W.i played table tennis with haizil,fadilah,nadiah,larry,shuanyu and saiful. it was insanely fun. we played no rule table tennis. just hit over the line. table tennis was suppose to play ON the table but we played everywhere. we even hit high balls which caused the ball to go over us. lol it was fun and funny. the ball always hit people. it hit Delta chester, saiful and....oh! shungyu. after that i go home get changed and go breakfast at "Just Noodle" with my classmates. then eat eat eat then farhan go watch movie then mr riduan go home take taxi but we found him in a toilet instead lol. Aiman said that he ate 11 spoon of ice scream. what to do..dont waste money. violet look at cashier girl. said that she has a C cup boobies and pretty. he just keep on oogling at her. then i was like...okay...
she is pretty but the attitude not my type. Nadia just keep laughing non stop. lol i wonder how she get to laugh so long. even i got my limit. i can only laughed until my mouth is gonna break.
and yea...after that we walk2 go see toy. chit chat. and then i take mrt with aiman. i alight first then go home buy ramli burger near the aljunied mrt station which happen to be there and i didnt know it. go walk home while listening to Gee gee gee then online. i happen to know that i suck when i am playing with friends in online gaming. cause there is no motivation. everytime i played with stranger...i excel..i have to train my shooting skills for basketball because ms jean said she put me in team to play with others. soooo im like okay. if possible i want to be able to lead the team. it will be great. so far today is fun. although there is arguments. sometimes arguments is part of bonding. at least that is what i think. i think i decide to get a Gf when NS is over. i need to learn how to focus. i got a bad habit that is not able to focus. it depends when...i think when i get to excited then i can focus. but if my mood is damn low then i would go home listen to song so i can ease my mind. thats what i have been doing to maintain my stress level. if i am out of song then that is bad. i could go crazy.tomorrow is donno what day...i think it is the browse thingy. browsing art maybe? well im not really interested in looking at musuem things. its boring. unless there is the science center robot talking machine. im quite tired now. i guess i should sleeep....Not.